Think Big Think Ahead Think FastIT WAS THE 112 DAY OF THE YEAR 2007. IT WAS A SUNDAY, A PRETTY LOUSY ONE I MUST SAY...
BUT THERE WAS SOMETHING DIFFERENT ABOUT THIS SUNDAY.
IF I EVER WRITE MY AUTOBIGRAPHY THIS DAY WILL HAVE A SPECIAL MENTION.
WHY BECAUSE THIS WAS THE DAY I HAD TO PART WITH SOMETHING THAT WAS VERY DEAR TO ME.
NO IT WASN'T MONEY(PPL WHO KNOW ME ARE AWARE OF MY LOVE FOR MONEY).
IT WASN'T A GIRL WHO LEFT ME('COZ FOR DAT TO HAPPEN U FIRST NEED TO HAVE A GIRL)
IT WAS SOMETHING EVEN MORE PRECIOUS. SOMETHING THAT I HAVE TREASURED, NURTURED, NOURISHED.
I FOUGHT THE WORLD FOR TWO YEARS SO THAT I COULD KEEP IT WITH ME.
THAT WAS THE DAY I LOST MY HAIR.
YES THEY WERE GONE. GONE AFTER BEING THERE FOR TWO YEARS, TWO LONG BUT LOVELY YEARS.
I WAS THE FIRST MAN IN THE FAMILY TO HAVE SUCH LONG HAIRS. ALL THROUGHT MY LAST 2 YEARS OF COLLEGE I WAS THE STYLE SYMBOL NOT A BIG ONE, BUT I WAS ONE.
PEOPLE LOOKED AT ME IN AMAZMENT, THEY FOUND IT UNACCEPTABLE, THEY SAID I LOOKED MATURE, THEY SAID I LOOK LIKE A BEAST FROM HELL(OOH!) AND SHOULD GET RID OF'EM, SOME EVEN SAID I LOOKED SEXY.
BUT IF U ASK ME.....
I LOOKED AT MYSELF AND SAW AN INDIVIDUAL WHO WAS PASSIONATE,
A PERSON WHO WOULD TAKE THE STORM HEAD ON BUT WOULD NOT BOW DOWN.
I SAW ME. I SAW MYSELF. (NO I DIDN;T SAW IRENE). MY LONG HAIR MADE ME FEEL COMPLETE
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I WAS IN LOVE, IN LOVE WITH MY HAIR.
THERE IS A SAYING WHICH GOES LIKE
" A MAN DOESN;T MAKE HAIR, BUT HAIR DOES MAKE A MAN"
AND BELIEVE I WAS THE MAN,WHEREVER I WENT.
I LOVED THE ATTENTION, THE QUESTIONS, THE GLANCES, THE AMAZEMENT. IT GAVE ME A SENSE OF ACCOMPLISHMENT NOT BECAUSE I HAD BLACK SILKY LONG HAIR AND THE OTHER PERSON DIDN;T.
BUT BECAUSE I HAD THEM EVEN AFTER THE WHOLE WORLD OPPOSED ME INCLUDING MY FAMILY, MY 4 BEST FRIENDS WHICH PRETTY MUCH COVERS MY WHOLE WORLD.
SO WHAT HAPPENED THAT DAY???
FOR A LONG TIME NOW I HAD BEEN RESISTING CHANGE. WHICH IS ESSENTIAL(FRANKLY I DON;T LIKE IT).AND THAT WAS THE DAY I DECIDED TO CHANGE MY IDENTITY.
I REMEMBER SITTING AT THE BABRBER SHOP WHEN I ASKED HIM(WITH A HEAVY HEART) TO CUT MY HAIR, THERE WERE A FEW EYEBROWS THAT WENT UP.
BUT I WAS CALM AND COMPOSED AND WHEN I SAW MY HAIR FALLING I FELT........................................................... SAD.
"THAT IS THE ONLY EMOTION I CAN REMEMBER".
AND JUST LIKE THAT, THEY WERE GONE. MY LOVE OF OVER TWO YEARS WERE GONE.
I DON;T REGRET IT NO REMORSE BUT WHENEVER I SEE SOMEONE WITH LONG HAIR, I SAY TO MYSELF "MINE WERE LONGER". I SOMETIMES MISS MY PONYTAIL THOUGH.
ANYWAYS, THE BOTTOM LINE IS, THAT I CHERISHED THEM BECAUSE I STRUGGLED FOR THEM AND YOU NEVERKNOW THE CRAZY FREAK I AM I MIGHT DO IT ALL OVER AGAIN.
AS SAIF ALI KHAN SAID IN "HUMTUM" .......
"YEH ZINDAGI BAHUT BADI HAI..."
SIGNING OFF...
PUNEET